Came to school at around 1230pm, supposed to reach by 1030 to meet Mr Wee.
Too bad, I'm late as usual.
And he's angry so he actually pushed my meeting with him to 3.
So, I'm rotting now.
@ makan place.
Lethargic is all I can say.
I lost my mood for everything.
Even just now at the IT helpdesk, the guy who knows me, asked me not to be so stressed out.
Its not stres, its complications.
Things happen at home and people tend to blame their parents.
Well, I'm not that special to not blame my parents.
But all I can say is, FML.
Seriously, whenever I tell my parents things like informing them, they will say I have no common sense.
For e.g, I told my dad, "I need the thumbdrive. I'm reformatting the thumbdrive."
And he just say, "then copy the files into the desktop and format lah, basic things, dont know meh?"
I mean, hey, I'm not revealing privacy stuffs here.
But, I mean, it was just informing them what I'm gonna do, in case his stuffs are in the thumbdrive. No common sense, no initiative, careless, what else?
I totally lost my mood and became damn blur and lethargic.
So, last night, I totally ignored them.
I didn't even bother asking them anything. I just asked my sisters and act as if they will know it. But at the same time, my parents could hear me.
Dumb and lame and childish, I know.
But this was caused because of my mum.
She just has to shoot me and humiliate me in front of strangers/guests/everything.
Ystd my sister's boyf came and after dinner, they sat in the living room.
I remembered she took my thermometer and so, I asked her. Then this is what I got.
She say,
"you are always like that lor. Take things alr anyhow put then lost alr, panic and find"
I replied,
"aye. I'm always the neat and tidy one ok." (she always say I'm the neatest and tidiest)
She replied,
"if you are always so tidy then you won't lost your things alr."
Then I just stared hard at her and rolled my eyes and went into the room, crushing papers and stabbing it with a pen like stabbing her.
She said that in front of my sister's boyf. Fuck.
She used to say I'm the neatest and tidiest, so whenever I clean the house, I do a very good job. And she always ask me to do house cleaning.
What about now? I anyhow put my stuffs and all, so meaning what.
You said those things to make me happy so I'll do housework for you?
I just want to fly off asap man.
Hack all my packing mean. I can just go empty handed, just to escape from this fuck shit parents.
Oh, did I mention she shouted and screamed at me at mustafa?
Oh yeah, she did. Like a fucking mad bitch.
I just rolled my eyes and walked off.
If she is embarrassed, then she would have done this behind the doors.
If she's not embarrassed, I am. I just let she shout and scream and I left the place.
So that would leave her shouting at no one, like crazy woman.
Seriously, I'm already flying off.
Can they stop this crap?
Can they still critisizing me?
They bought me an Ipod. But before that, I said I don't want it, cause later I lose it ALSO. I didn't lost anything, fyi.
Then they say, even I have no confidence in myself, how can they have confidence in me?
I just shoot them back, I said, you guys keep saying me. Things not lost by me also say I lost it. Yall alr keep saying me, you think I still want it meh?
Just because I'm the last touch, I lost it huh? They keep critisizing me, how you want me to hold this responsiblity when I know at the end of the day, you guys will still blame me?
Damn bullshit.
Bullshit TTM. FML
All I want to say is, dad & mom, if you guys are reading (i know you would), fuck my life. If you guys want to keep shooting me, I will not ask anything cause I won't expect an answer from you. And I won't even reply you. I will just fly to Wuhan and you guys won't see my face. Seriously, just forget me for these 6 weeks cause I know I will.
FUCK.