Superwoman mask.: July 2008

No one owes you a living.

25.7.08, 10:50 PM

Okay, the one and only photo on Racial Harmony day :D

My mum says I look auntie.
What to do? Its baju kurung lehhhh.
HAHAHA.

I've written you all over my heart (:

Just a thought at that moment.
No special things or events kkae.
Because my sister said that guy filled her heart & mind.

So, I wrote "you" all over the heart. :D

&& the golf photos.
Nothing much.
But we were bored.
And you know, Joh Linn as usual suggested doing something :D

Her leg :D

And the magnificent views that day.

Thats all :D

I've digested chemistry!
Got to eat the TYS tmr :D

Physics still half done :D
Maths is totally at my finger tips! :]

& Sorry Jamie, you don't owe my a living.
But I was seriously in a bad mood, you see.

Its really hard to live and survive through NSS.

When you're in a bad mood, you can't show.
Why? People would say you're attitude and angry over trivial stuffs.
But whatever yea?

If you're happy and laugh loudly, people will scold you for being loud and rowdy.
But whats the problem up with you guys?
Are your trying to make yourself happy out of people's agony?

Whats wrong with people laughing and being loud?
Are you trying to imply that you're jealous of her/his happy life?
And that you don't want to see her/him happy because you're not?

This is ridiculous kkae?
Super ultimate ridiculous.
What can't you just let people be happy?
You hate him/her, its your problem.

They don't owe you a living right?
Why try to make yourself happy only when the person you hate is in pain?

People are trying to be themselves.
They don't have to change for you...
And obviously, they are trying hard to kick their flaws outta them.
Why not give them a chance?

All I can say is, when I'm happy, I laugh and all.
But people see it as irritation. Whatever.
When I'm angry, obviously for a reason..
People see it as pettiness and narrow-minded.

If I dont smile, they say Im constantly angry over small things.
Which is obviously not.
Because my heart feels happy only not to show it on my face.

If I smile & laugh, they say Im action.
Hey, if you don't know..
This is fucking irritating.

I was thinking about my flaws and wanting to change myself.
Then, I thought. Why change for a stranger?
I mean a stranger in my life ( not my friend although you have my number and talked to me before )

Who doesn't know about their flaws?
Obviously they do right?
Dont you have your flaws too?
Think about it again yea.

Stop labelling people and think about yourself:
"Do you like the label people give you?"
If you don't feel good, learn to accept people.
They are not God yea.

LEARN.
And Grow Up.
It is not that I dont..

Oh, And I'm deleting people permenantly off my Msn.
And friendster.
Toodles :)

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Are you happy with your friends?

23.7.08, 6:30 PM

Friends come and go.
Eventually the ones you'll be lying on is, your family.

I'm not narrow minded nor petty.
But thats the fact.
I ain't refering to anyone kkae.

This was one of my compo..
Thats why I'm blogging about it.

20/07 was fun! :)
Huiyi and Chew ping had lots of fun I guess?
Crazy people.
But we didnt take any photos.
Yea.. We all hate cameras:D

21/07 was horrible! :(
I wore the malay costume.
And refuse to take any pictures except with sheena.
Maybe she's just sitting behind me, thats why :D
And I didnt want anyone to see me in malay costume.
Especially Mr Jackson. HAHAH.
Everyone was waiting to see me wear. So pai seh -.-"

Yea..
& I wore baju kurung while almost all the girls wore baju kebaya.
Yea, all pretty aye :D

I studied till late hours almost ever since the remedial till 4.30 pm started.
Studying till late hours doesn't mean I have worked very hard.

But because the time doesn't allow..
I had to stay up late just to complete my homework.
Horrible isnt it?

People hardworking only study till 10 or 11.
I so "hardworking", I study till 12 or 1.
What is this man... :D

Okay, enough grumble.
I got to work hard.
but I may be leaving this blog to rot laa.
Most probably.

But I like my new url.
So opposite of my old one.
dark corridor VS bright sun.

Ah, and today we had a surprise spot check on chemistry.
Well, I didnt really understand the carboxylic acid structure..
Was trying to digest it last night.

But who knows..
Formal correct but the structure wrong.
Cause its the acid + oxygen to produce ethanoic acid + water.

How dumb.
I only rmb the COO and OOC.

Ah, got to work harder.
This is horrible.

And I cant find my grade 7 certificate!
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.
I shall pray that Ms Tang believes me.
If not everything GONEEEEE -.-"

Kidding.
Regardless of what grade she wants to put,
I cant give a damn anymore.
Cause homework is much important.
And my subject grades are much much more important.

Unless my L1R5 cannot make it, I will not give up.
Or think of any alternate ways of surviving through this society.
HAHAHA.

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So what if it was already planned out?

19.7.08, 11:54 PM

I finally saw the teachings today.
I'm glad Daddy went for PTC.

Mr Neo was right.
My piano teacher was right.

So, I should stop giving excuses to myself.
And work harder!

I must always tell myself I have not put in all my effort..
I must put in more and more effort!
I cannot give up just like that.

A disaster..
Piano theory exam clashes with GCE O level (social studies) paper.
Mr neo says GCE is first priority.

But if I dont have this grade 5 certificate by this year, how to take practical next year?
I've already worked out my pieces, scales and everything.
I dont want to start all over again.

This is terrible isnt it?

So, from today onwards..
People do one hour revision, I do double.
People play for one hour, I play for half an hour.

No more computers = No more updates.
No more time = No more play.
No more play = No more golf.

People say we must know how to plan evenly our play and studies.
But sorry, I can't.

People say although we have to study, but we have to exercise daily too.
But sorry, I can't.

I got to use every minute, every time slots to do revision.
Be it A question or a word.
Everything must get into my brains by end of September.

I may sound like a manic.
A geek but oh, whatever.
Im really feeling very bad about everything.

I really cant smile anymore.
Unless I've shown some improvement in my studies.
Thinking about studies,
I dont think tmr's party would cheer me up.

Ah, forget it.
I shouldnt get emotional.
And I got to take things in my stride.

I shouldnt be swayed by people's words.
I shouldnt care about what they say.
I shouldnt even listen to a word they say.

I AM ME.
I shall be a nerdy chengchin from today onwards.
Study, study and study!

TYS and FYS are to die in my hands!
:]

Sorry to whoever it is (imagine it youself)
I'm not an initiative girl when I am not in a mood to smile.
If you're not the initiative one too, sorry then.
Time to say byebye.

If you think you've been taking the initiative, you're wrong.
You have made a girl's heart cry for you.

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Mrs Ho is driving everyone NUTS! ):

18.7.08, 5:17 PM

20 July is reaching!
Cant wait. Why?
Cause I can finally get a chance to relaxe myself.

I'm going NUTS WITH MATHS!
Be it A or E maths.

Today's extra class dragged like fucking long can?
3 hours and mrs ho went off.
Leaving us to die on our own.

But in the end, one by one started to leave.
So, I couldnt care less and went off too.

If she's gonna punish us, whole class die together lor.
We had to put back our lunch hour just to complete the bloody paper.
Amer and me were like starting to have gastric pain laa.

SUPER HUNGRY. ( especially when im eating alot nowadays )
And we were pissed off.

Okay, she was pissed off but didnt really show it.
Cause we had to redraw abd redraw and redraw the bloody graph.
ROAR!

My graph had a hole already laa..
Erase too much.
And to think I never even use strength to erase it.
Must use another graph paper. See laa, waste paper. zZ.

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I must have lost my medication.
Super hyper and high this week.
Jamie wanted to smack my butt.

Cause I went rounds and rounds around her, making the "vroom vroom" sound.
Some more I brake in front of her.
Then she thought which idiot is it..
In the end its me. :D

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I got to chiong all my homework tonight
and throw them in Mrs ho's face on monday.

And I think tmr PTC I'm going to die.
Mr Neo wants to speak to my dad.

And ms tang I dono ah.
I failed both pure sciences.
Both E8. -.-

Aiya! Should have just told ms tang my father couldnt make it on saturday.
STUPID.. -.-
All my classmates no need to go cause their parents... -.-"
How dumb. I told my dad its complusory. :x

I AM SO CLEVER MAN. :[

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I ain't suppose to be frowning.

16.7.08, 5:23 PM

Its such a lovely weather and I am NOT suppose to be frowning.
So, for the sake of my friends, I shall plaster that pathetic smile on my face.

I dont know whats got into me..
But its really terrible.
It like practically affecting my mood recently.

Nopes, not PMS.
Wrong guess..

I got to stay positive and happy urh.
If not thunder clouds will be soon finding me.
ROAR.

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Today I was unexpectedly released early for maths remedial.
Cause the paper we did was far too easy.
So after we have finished our papers, we could go off.

I walked on the 2nd level.
And I saw CO members.
And it reminds me of my old days at CO.

I even saw Huo lao shi.
Suddenly, I felt so far from them.

She called me the nickname, " mei nu."
Okay, ignore the nickname.
But upon hearing that nickname, I find that I really miss those conductors lots.
And even, I missed Liu lao shi.

He used to call me qing ting because of my old green specs.
But now, I hradly sees him.
Even Zhu lin lao shi..

Although he say that he didnt want to teach me anymore..
But still, he taught me alot.
You must be wondering why he didnt want to teach me.

Because I was graduating and if I were to take the er hu exam, I could attain a grade 4.
Thats why he refused to teach me.
Ssaddening.. He wont teach me now too ):
But I miss him, that ass. :D

Hopefully despite of my tight schedules, I can still go back and see how are the juniors doing.
Lets hope CO wont collapse in at least 3 years time. LOL.

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Exam madness =S

15.7.08, 4:50 PM

Today is GCE O Level Listening Comprehension.
I think I can only get a 7 or 8?
Totally screw it up lurh.

I was the first person in the 3rd column.
The invigilator is so fierce looking but he turns out okay.
It wasnt the exam that scared me but the invigilator. Stupid :D

Well, mid-year was screwed up.
My L1R4 and L1R5 is so terrible that I cant even go ITE.
HAHAHA. My dad confirm going to PTC on Saturday alr.
Oops :D

But I was lucky to have passed my English so I wont grumble.
And I got a B for my Maths.
A maths improved but..
Still fail laa :D

And Mr yoonus passed my combined humanities!! :D:D
So happy can. He say I needed one more mark to pass so he just let me pass.
HAHAHA. He's damn nice.

He even praised me :):)
Okay okay. I'm not a BHB eh ( Toh Li Jun, hor? :D )

And thanks for all the good lucks and all :D
The encouragements were constantly ringing in my head.
And it kept me going on strong ^^

Hmmm.. Da jie isnt around these few days.
Feeling quite empty.
But something else made me feel more empty.
Only miyuki knows :D

And these few days dont have maths homework.
I was so happy laaaa :)

Anyway, this post is drop dead boring.
So, dont bother reading.
I mean if you have read till this sentence..
Good for you :D

P.S/ Liars liars, pants on fire.
Know what? I hate liars the most.

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梅菲定律

13.7.08, 12:09 PM

There's something called 梅菲定律.
Quite interesting though :D

Does it applies when youre busy and people starts asking you out like a big gush of water?
LOL.

I'm so busy today and so many people asked me out.
But I can't ! ):

Joh Linn's mum invited me to swim with them in the morning but I cant go ):

Harrish asked me to Executive course to hit 9 holes but I can't go either!

Uncle Tham asked me to join him and joh linn's family to hit at the range.
But I cant go!
Because it will take hours if i go and cant complete my homework ):

I got to go grandma's house today but I cant go!
Cause it will take 2/3 of my day away!

This is crazy. LOL.

Joh Ann was so excited to see me yesterday.
Joh linn too! :D
They were all very happy.
Me too! I miss all of you alot!! :)

I saw chris and han lin.
Oh, james, harrish and yi xuan too :D

They were all so happy laa (:
But someone¹ was happier :D
Cause everytime I go back for golf, someone² would go too..

This is called fate i guess?
And so, someone¹ requested me to go every week.
So that someone² would come.
HAHAHA.

But sorry darling, I cant.
It lies in your own fate :)

Yesterday was my last golf practise before my prelims really start.
And after this week, there will sure to be more homework coming in.
I mean, revision papers.

And I would really have no time.
Sorry guys :)

Oh, and today.
Talking about today..

I was woken up by vibrations of my phone.
Silent mode = no use?
LOL. Early in the morning I received so many messages.

Its not my birthday right?
LOL. I wonder how people wake up so early in the morning.

I cant. :D
I waited for the longggg vibration to stop and went back to sleep.
HAHAHAHA. thank you thank you.
I know im zhu :D

But soon later, the television woke me up (_ _) zZ
thanks ah. lol.

And eventually I woke up!
at 10. yay! so early!
HAHAHA. okay, its late alr. :D

Then I proceeded to read the messages.
All good morning messages.
LOL. Yea, GOOD MORNING PEOPLE!
BUT ITS NOON ALR!

LOL. I'm getting mad.
I got to get on with my homework instead of crapping here.

But English homework is like so boring laaaaaaa.

I have yet to transfer the pictures I took yesterday with joh ann and joh linn :\
And congratulations! MP4 didnt die on me.
If not I humtump you huh.
Bloody kuku.

&& MY SISTER DROPPED MY PHONE FROM GREAT HEIGHT.
THE SPEAKER IS SPOILT, THE COVER FLEW OUT.
And I cant receive sms. SO GREAT HUH?

Yesterday I couldn't send out or receive messages for 15 minutes.
But its okay after that.
but it will auto swtich on and off ):

So saddening.
I cant even play music anymore.
No more sound. T^T

Thats why, MP4, you die on me, I KILL YOU FIRST.

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PTC = DIE :X

11.7.08, 10:25 PM

My sister is occupying the damn computer.
And I have to use her laptop.
So, all my photos..

HAHAHAH.

Right, tmr im going golf! :)
HAHAHAH.
But obviously before I go, I have to complete the damn maths homework.

Mrs Ho thought I'm angry with her today.
She show those "papa" face. LOL?
Cause she suan me mah!

I wanted to know whats B1 or whatever B thingie.
Then she say so loudly only for teachers to know.
But, if you get a mark for a wrong answer,
Obviously you want to know whats the reason right? LOL.

Then she say I know you want to be teacher in the future but now no need to know yet.
WTH? LOL.
Then she went on ranting on it.
Like, "Wait ah class, I must remove the B1(s) from the solution first if not Chengchin will ask me what is it again ah. She wants to be a future teacher mah.."
GREAT JOB MAN, MRS HO.

The whole is like practically laughing -.-

And then we went for recess.
But all the classes were locked out of the class.
Why? Mr Muthu locked our doors.
And everyone had to go to the parade square.
Ah, whatever. LOL.

Until now, I know most of my subjects' marks.
I failed physics, chemistry, geography, a maths.
What else? LOL.

I passed my English which, I am very happy about it.
And E maths, my strongest subject.

But I was glad that my chemistry improved alot.
AND ITS ALOT!
Although I fail, I failed by a few marks only.
Not like last time. HAHAHA.

But I still need to go for PTC.
Only students with 20 or higher marks for L1R4 need to go..
And I confirm one of them.

Gah, whatever.
See Ms Tang's face also not my father's first time -.-
Besides, Maybe my dad cannot make it?
HAHAHAHA.

pray hard :D:D:D

Anyway, Got to go! tata! :)

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Sick and CCA points.

9.7.08, 9:53 PM

I'm sick again!
Terrible flu. I used 3 packets of tissue. LOL.
And I nearly coughed out blood.

KIDDING. HAHAHA.

Anyway, brief update.
Maths lessons are horrible like shit!
Internet homework, hack care? :]

HAHAHA.
Was suppose to get 12/12
but i only got 9/12 and submitted my work.
Hack alr. ;D

Emo, Emo & Emo.
I've been emo. Cant smile!
HAHAHA. But I can still laugh loudly. LOL.

Today we took back our CCA particulars(?)
One more point to A1.
what the hell... :\

And I was the photographer in many events.
But they are not even included.
The thought of it, surely it does hurt?

Although mr sim can do nothing about it & mr low refuse to give it as CCA point because he didnt put my name under photography club,
I'm fine k. Really.

Aishah was angry. Sara was angry too.
Many were angry.
They helped me speak to mr Brain.
But what's the use?

He? Him? Sure not?
Still can amend, sure not?

But anyway, lets discard that thought.
I dont expect any CCA points or whatever credit in taking photos.
Cause mr sim said, it was volunteer work.
So, I can only depend on Chinese Orchestra
And try to do as much CIP hours as possible within time limit.

Yea..
CHEERS EVERYONE!
Thank you so much, Sara and Aishah.
LOVE YOU GUYS! :)

P.s/ Lu Sheng was damn sweet to someone eh! Ahem Ahem. :D
Do it to me & I'll marry you! :D

KIDDING.

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MIA, EMO, WHAT ELSE? :\

8.7.08, 6:06 PM

MIA MIA MIA.

Sorry peeps.
My phone is like not with me the past 2 days?

Ya...
Even if it was, I didn't reply the messages.
Yupp. Double sorry.

Why do I have to pretend to be happy when I'm not?
Why can't I just cry and show to everyone that I'm sad?
I know I can't.. But I really want to!

How long do I have to bear with my tears?
How long do I have to bear with the pain in my heart?

This is killing my heart & soul.
This is killing me.

MY PHONE IS IN THE SEA! ):

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bear with the classical music, please? :D

6.7.08, 1:34 PM

Okay laa peeps.
I know my blog song is classical music.
Lullaby hey.

But, This is temporary.
Cause this is currently my motivation to play well.

JIA YOU FOR PIANO EXAMS!!!!

ROARRR :D

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Miyuki's photo shoot :D

5.7.08, 5:20 PM

I thought I was special to you.
But I wasn't at all.
Someone else was much special to you.
And I'll never replace that person.

sigh*

Today was a busy busy day! :)
Had photoshooting for miyuki.
HAHAHA. It may sound lame but whatever.
Shall transfer the photos ltr.
Too many :D

Went various places today.
Just to seek for Jamie babe's and Kailin's birthday present.
It was easy though.

Because they both like nightmare before christmas!
HAHAHAHA. So, I got it, I got it!
YAY!

Im such a good girl today.
I ironed all my clothes today.
And many many housechores.

Okay laa.
Because I woke up at 11 so I was guilty
and decided to make my guiltiness go away by doing housework.
HAHAHAHA.

But somehow, when I do all these..
I was actually relieving my grandma's and mother's big big burden :D

See, im so good.
yuck * okay okay
Self-praise is international disgrace.

whateverrrrrr.
:D

Got to start doing maths.
So I can have monday free from homework!
I got to start doing my theory..
Because thats what I promise my piano teacher to do :D

Because I insisted on getting my theory exam in november,
It clashes with my O level papers.
SO GREAT :D

Got to study double hard. more than the others. D:
I got to pass this exam!!!!
So I can take my bloody grade 7 in march 2008.

JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!!
Numerous jia you(s) just for myself.
ROAR! :D

And also play hard.
Im gonna take my handicap in december.
So shit right?

So many events after o's.
I got to work tooooooo.
To earn some extra money to buy my stuffs.

I wouldn't want to use my parents' money to buy my stufss.
Cause using their money would be like a waste.
Cause its my stuffs :D

Okay. wait.
Uploading in process :D

Miyuki is like a giant to these little houses :D
Oh, I got these houses just for her :D

Miyuki doing split. :D
Ouch right?
HAHAHA.

See their sizes o.O

house 1:

house 2:

So happy eh!

Climbing on the house :D

Behind the "bushes" :D

With the fences.

with the goat :D

Miyuki is at zoo! :D

Zebraaaa :D:D:D

Riding the horse! :D

With the elephants and giraffes :D

And her new friend, the kangaroo!
See! The kangaroo is posing too :D

And to the farm house.
where there's cows and chickens :D

THERE!
Here are 55 out of 99 photos.
o.O many huh.

HAHAHA.
Cant stop snapping.
And I'm lazy to edit away the ugly backgrounds.

I mean, I took these photos in my room.

So the background is like..
Inevitably ugly laa.
with my books, tables and shelfs. lol.

And also the brightness :x
Abit dark huh :D

Anyway, thats about it! :D

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