Nothing to be mentioned but grandma took grandfather, hand in hand, away from us on 18/02/2010. They died as a couple as their "homes" in the temple are side by side. :)
Hey guys, sorry that I went MIA again. You know, CNY is usually the occasion that we enjoy colecting hong baos and eat nice food. But my CNY '10 was a different one this year.
2009, National Day, I lost my dearest dearest granny. Usually on CNY Day 1, I would look forward to waking up and greeted by aroma of carrot cake and sweet soup. The must eat stuffs on CNY. My granny would usually enjoy going to the market and buy whole lot of groceries home. It is tiring for her, but she enjoyed every single bit of this. She would everytime, be so proud to show us the nice vegetable deals she got from the market. She would say this carrot is big and nice. That meat fat and sweet. We would then look at it but had no idea whats so nice about it.
This year CNY Day 1(sunday), I woke up, like a usual sunday. No sweet soup, no delicious breakfast. Got ready for bai nian and left the house.
Came home, it was so quiet that it creeps me out. You mean, this is CNY? You sure? Its more of a usual sunday where we would just come home and slack ard before dinner.
Skip.
Day 2(monday), stayed home the whole day. How awesomely wonderful. And visited grandfather at night. When I went into his room, I thought I saw a corpse. But its not, its my skinny old grandfather! Oh my GODNESSSSS! What on earth happened man. !@#!@#!@#!@#!#
Day 3(tuesday), went out with Joh Linn. Movie to Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief. Terrifically awesome movie. We caught it at Tampines 1. I don't know what's with the name but I know there's 3 malls there.
Came home, received an "AWESOME" news. Grandfather was admitted into the hospital. WTH. Why CNY? Why? God, why did you choose CNY? Probably you can't stand looking at him suffer on such a special occasion?
Day 4(wednesday), visited Grandfather at the hospital. His condition was so severe that the doctor said he's not gonna pull through the night. Rushed down, teared almost immediately and asked i-don't-know-how-many-times of 'why'. He saw me, I held his hands. I called him but he couldn't recognise me. Sigh.
Almost everyone rushed down. At last, the eldest grandson and my da jia rushed down. He doted on my da jie the most and although he has forgotten most of us, he will still rmb my da jie. After that, my mum talked to him, "Ah pa, everyone's here already. Ah qing is also here already. You have seen the people you want to see already. Listen to me, close your eyes, you are ready to go. Guai guai ok." My grandfather nodded in agreement and my tears rolled down again.
Grandfather teared as he breathed difficultly.
He was strong. His heart was beating strong. He is still breathing. His time is not here yet but he's weak.
I went home soon after.
Day 5(thursday), my mum told us grandfather has already went into a coma last night. He can no longer respond but his heart was beating strong. They were waiting for his heart to stop. Soon, he left us.
I held on strong and told my dad that I would stay home to take care of my lil sister. I held my tears. I held it tightly, hoping it won't break in front of my sister. At least, I saw him for the last time and held his hands. I was so regretted when I couldn't even see my granny for the last time. This time, I made sure I had no regrets and I consoled my sister while her tears poured like rain.
Sigh.
Day 6(friday), I rushed down after my exams to my grandfather's funeral. I ran and reached just on time when the coffin was closing. I rushed in and paid my last respect. Wai gong, qiah horh.
James was with me. And he stayed on with me till he got to go and I went back to slack ard with my relatives.
Day 7(saturday), he was ready to go. His body was gonna get cremated at Mandai and we did all the ceremony to send him on his way. Leiyi and clique came down. Thank you guys, for your support. :) We walked all the way out with his coffin in a van and no one cried, except for my mum. I don't know why I didn't cry, probably due to experience. I promised to stay strong. When his body went into the fire, no one called out for him(pa, wai gong, yeye), only my mum. The last time we can call him Wai gong but we didn't. Regrets again? Sigh. Regrets everywhere.
I stayed on strong but tears are so overwhelming in my eye sockets now. I lost my Ah gong in 2008, Grandma in 2009 and Wai Gong in 2010. If you guys were to say your life is suckish, tell me, what is this that I am going through?
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Two papers are gone, one left to go. Thank you people for encouraging me to go on. I am still studying and till today, I studied. Although not my fullest effort but I tried. POA is gonna be at least a B for me. I will and must get it. I will not fail.
Anyways, a very belated Birthday wish for my baby. I was so busy that I forgo-ed my birthday surprise for him. I can't help it, forgive me baby.
Here it is for you,
Happy Birthday my lovely boy!
You are already 18, ready for many 1st times. But bear in mind what are the most important things to you. Never forget your most important things. Don't be blinded by anything except love ;)
Love you.
Shall update more on his mini birthday surprise on the next post!
Chao!